WAT THE HECKK!!!!!!

HAIH!!!!~~~~ y human must be like this.. when u noe something.. it makes u wanna noe more.. n when u dun noe somthing.. it makes u angry n u wanna noe it too much.. until now.. u feel so angry sad n sorry for her.. wat FOR!!!!~~~haizz.. i got to found out something bout this good fren of mine.. he n me feel for the same girl.. asu read down the blogs be4 this one.. u'll get the picture.. n then suddenly that day i ask him.. he say he told her already.. he explain everything to her already.. ahih~~ i dunno wat to do.. i really wanna ask her if she feels sad or wat is her feeling that day.. on that time on that MOMENT!!.. haih... i really do.. n then i found out again..(this was by myself)... he gave up was becuz.. of other girls.. omg.. wat should i feel bout him.. wat a shock!! i mean it.. WAT A SHOCK MAN DUDe!!.. haiz.. wat should i do.. wat should i.. wat wat wat wat ... wat the fuck!!!!!!! should be the word.. dam it.. forget it la.. hurt like shit

my love~~ its almost the time.. haiz~~

If I wrote you a symphony...Just to say how much you mean to me..Now, if I wrote you a love note...And made you smile with every word I wrote .. wat wil u do??If I told you you were beautiful would u be happy?? gratefull?...date me on the regular ??.. haih~~ things r happenning too OBVIOUS!! TOO obvious man!!Well, I've been all round the world ..But I ain't seen myself another girl.. cant seems to put it down n give it up wat i dun wan it to happen... Sitting together, laying side by side... make me feel happy but i noe. that wouldn't be the answer that i wants in the future.. See, what's the point of waiting anymore.. Cause girl I've never been more sure ..... but that doesn't mean i give up... hehe.. so all the way until the answer comes to me..\!!!BRING it on.. i'm always ready for it/.. the answer i meant..:)

hmmm... gonna mis so many people

today is monday... 2MORE DAYS TO MY HATRAD sub.. chinese exam.. haizz stupid spm
our graduation is over.. photo has been taken.. but lack of one.. thats my mui mui(pei lin)
i wanted to take many pictures as possible.. but she's at genting highland when i graduate.. haizz.
so then the most i cant forget is rachel... hmm i wil really miss her alot.. is best if she would join in the same college as i do in future:) hehe. hmm althought it has been 7 months n 2 weeks.. i'm still waiting for the answer that she haven't been giving me.. i just hope that is a good answer... but i seems to like... already have a ffeling of answer in my heart... haizz.. if our distance is goin to fall apart... the far apart wil it change the feelings of her.. thinking too much is no good..
so i plan to let it go for the moment.. n just let it be natural... depends on her.. if she really. hmm... dun care la.. i cant do much.. my good fren had hurt her once... n i dunno wat kind of feeling i should have.. sad?? angry?? sorry or wat?? so hard to think of it.. i cant bare wit it any longer... letting it go for the moment until my exam is over should be a good way... so just hope i can focus in my exam.. for the moment:)

I CAN'T no longer...

i can BARE no longer.. to focus n look at myself no matter wat happened.. just like this foto.. giving up is sad.. keeping it going on.. ameks me sad too.. die.. too pain.. cant decide wat to do.. pray is totally a lame way.. going after it.. its so tiring.. waiting.. is so broken.. always like this.. nothing seems to be shotting at my mind n aiming fo an answer that i wil feel much better be4 my exam starts.. the nearer my exam coming.. the MORE HATRED i got for myself... haizz.. just like this foto.. DUN LOOK AT ME NO LONGER MAN DUDE!!!!

DisTANCE.. wil it be the one??

COULD IT be??.. distance as the reason??... here i am again.. post down the feelings i think... i've heard so many songs.. so many kinds of lyrics thats so so so suitable to me.. i feel so sad.. whenever i hear them:'(...Should I leave, should I go, should I break apart??N wat said you would break my heart...How could I’ve fallen so in love With someone I’d known for monthsss.. And not even know that She’d be the one..To reveal my worst my fears.....
after this year.. i'll be leaving skol .. very soon i wont have the time already.. or perhaps should say.. no more time.. AT ALL.. should i just.. or should i ...should this should that.. stupid brain.. if onli i have the controller to stop the functionning... haizzzz... skol over.. things over.. time over.. many things wil be soon be over!

Failure I am..

SOON enough.. i've started thinking of it already... many things. many reasons.. many courses that made me think like this.. in many ways.
mayb its my faulth for not making the opportunities.. mayb i didn't approach her near enough.. often enough.. or even mayb cuz i spend 90% by distance contacting.. or should i say 99%?? is it a mistake or is it wrong?? is it stil able to change it by starting it now?? by changing it now?? or is it too late??.. dude my brain's gonna explode any moment....!!!!!!! yoyoyo... y,y,y,y,.. haizz... thinking makes me... fadup
perhaps.. is cuz of the distance.. mayb.. or perhaps not.. ah~~~~~ hope it passes faster!!!..
its been sometime.. i felt that.. our communication.. has changed.. to some sort of.. feelings that gave me the answers... mayb im thinking too much?? or mayb not?? thinking is not a good thing.. i've read some article.. saying that i'm shy or wat or wat as a reason.. ALL LAME man!!!.. dam IT!!..how should i over come this thinking thing?? or this lame thing?? ALL THIS!!! HOWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!

还要多久,我才能在你身边,也许我会比较好一点.从前从前,有个人爱你很久,但偏偏,风渐渐,把距离吹得好远,althought i love her so long already..its my very very 1st time chasing a girl.. for more than half a year.. haizz. i feel like a failure.. haiz.. feelings is so pain n broken whever i think of her... seriously... sometimes it makes me feel like at the end...故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜... wil this be the end of the story?? haiz... i feel like... so sad.. if it would be mine.. it would have in the earlier.. y drag it.. anyway.. hope time passes n tel me the real truth:) .. if not.. please.. n i'll pray that she'll finally find the one for her.. n i believe.. She will!!!

LiFe rEaLlY SuX MaN!!!!!!!!!! HaTe iT

I Really hate my life!!! hate it alot!! parent... frens... relationship.. studies... games... communications.. hate them all yo!! ALL MAN!!!.. wAT the fUCKKK!! sometimes.. i really feel like just hope it stops for once.. n let me go to a world.. whom i belong to.. whom nobody will be ever to control me.. like my parents.. who i dun need to think so much.. like my relationship n studies.. whom i can rule there.. like games... whom i dun need to hate books so much like studying nonstop.. yet all result.. so so onli... n a place whom i have many good frens n best FRENS!!!! haizz. sometimes i ever thought of... those frens that i treat them like really my best best frens.. but do they treat me the same way?? this is the thing i hate the most.. they mayb saying u r infront of u .. but who noe's from the real b?? he or she is NOT!!! haiz~~ such things had happened to me be4.. wat bout other pl?? i really hope they can find one.. whom really treats u real good!! n will always be tehre for u whenever u need their help.. if they run n hdie their faces.. just forget it n move on real life.. n dun be like me.. facing stupid confusion..
another thing is relationship.. have u ever face a situation be4 that u n your Very good fren fell in love wit a same girl.. u were the 1st one to like her.. but he suddenly go n tease her n disturb her(in good manner) then suddenly he fell in love wit her too.. n he noe's that u love her.. this is the thing i hate most.. to me.. it has already happened to me twice.. n the same good fren fell in love wit a girl!! sometimes i feel that.. is he just trying to fail me?? haizz.. then suddenly it comes to a session that your est fren says.. actually he found out that he dun loves her that much.. so THIS IS THE PART i hate again!!am i suppose to be angry at him or happy or sad or!!! dam.. the feeling is the stupidest thing ever.. y human must cr8 us wit feelings somtimes i think... is it suppose to be angry at him?? or happy for myself.. or wat?? or hate him<<<.. haih~ i'm being already dam fucking stressed wit my coming near spm examination.. i'm focusing at 2 currently.. actually to be honest is 3 lo.. haizz.. so dam fucking stressed.. haih~ i just hope it get over quick n fast as time passes.. haizz.. i'm being really down nowdays... just really down... so i wish u guys all out there... alll the best..n be happy wit your life...